I want to ride

All. I. Want. Is. To. Ride. Seriously! I haven't ridden in so long, and I am going to die if I don't get a good ride in soon. I mean, I can ride Aly, but only walk. I don't want to hurt her. So most of the time we go for hand walks, munch on some grass, look at the pretty cross country jumps...ect, ect. and my brothers horse has a popped splint, and is owchy on that. So I can't ride him. I don't really want to ride him just because he is Treys horse, and Trey has barely ridden all year! Crazy boy. PLUS school starts Monday! Gahhh!!! Fml. I don't wanna go. At least it's jr.year I guess? But that leaves less time for riding. And I am taking honors classes PLUS AP U.S.History. Woohoo. See the enthusiasm? So basically, I will not be competing this fall, riding, or involved with anything that keeps me in the loop of Area 8 Eventers. Sadface. Emily will be off to college and with her new hubby from now on, so I will barely see her anymore. Cryface. And Kristen is selling Will, I think. So it's just me and Austin. And Austin is in college too, so I will never see her either! I look forward to cleaning horse poop by myself, not riding, and feeding the fat, fluffy horses all winter. not. It has been since August 2009 that I last competed! And August 2010 that I have trailered anywhere else to ride. So I'm feeling really low about my riding career right now. I need to ride again. Dressage and jump something! Anything! Sigh. Well, I guess I just gotta convince the rents to let me lease a horse for the fall. I hope I can. I'm not good at asking them for stuff. The whole ' no money ' thing kinda makes it hard. But they understand how much I love and work for the horses just to ride, much less compete *as mentioned above*. Well, at least my dad does, not so sure about mom. So anyway, I need a game plan. Say how much I need to ride, I found a horse online, ask them to look at it, call the owner, take a look at the horse, hopefully like it, talk to Spandau about bringing new horse over for me to ride this winter, work off bOard agreement, horse stays in stall next to Aly or Zeke?, start working with said horse, maybe compete if I have spare money, be happy, then when Aly is better start with her again. That's a lot wow. Hopefully it will happen!